I came into the Agency with a set of ideas and attitudes that were quite typical of people coming into the Agency at that time. You could call it liberal anti-communism.
I saw a limit to what I was giving as kind of a scam I was running on the KGB, by giving them people that I knew were their double agents fed to us.
Let's say a Soviet exchange student back in the '70s would go back and tell the KGB about people and places and things that he'd seen and done and been involved with. This is not really espionage; there's no betrayal of trust.
My little scam in April '85 went like this: Give me 0,000; here's some names of some people we've recruited.
The FBI, to its credit in a self-serving sort of way, rejects the routine use of the polygraph on its own people.
There are so many things a large intelligence espionage organization can do to justify its existence, that people can get promotions for, because it could result in results.
To the extent that I considered the personal burden of harming the people who had trusted me, plus the Agency, or the United States, I wasn't processing that.