Discretion is the polite word for hypocrisy
Even a criminal has the right to a new life, but they made sure I did not have that. They just didn't stop calling me a prostitute for ever and ever and ever and ever.
One way of reading my life is that I have been in constant search for a father.
I have always been free with my love - it is my nature. I am easily captivated by men and they have always been attracted to me.
I won't say I didn't like it at the time, the sex, that is, because I wouldn't have let him do it at all if that had been the case.
I went out every single night so I was never alone with my stepfather. At 12, I stopped going on holiday with them. The times I was alone with him I always made sure I was all covered up.
My mother used to go out on her own, and I used to have to keep a look out for my stepfather coming home.
If I don't tell it all now, the story in the history books will always be imperfect and that would be wrong.
I don't know if he was the fourth man or the fifth, but he was certainly in the top 10.
They wanted to hear about the sex, of course. But not the rest; no one wanted to hear the rest.
I enjoyed sex and indulged in it when I fancied the men.
I'm terrified of men these days. If someone asked me out now, I don't know what I'd say, how I'd react. But I couldn't go through with it, not at all. I suppose I've been terrified of them all along.
Men, all men, were always trying to get hold of me, you know.
I never found anyone who was good enough, who I could trust enough.
He had a way with him. Before you had a chance to say no, he was there and done. That only happened to me once before, with a duke, who literally swept me off my feet, and before I knew what was happening, we'd done it. Another terrible mistake.