Straight away there was pressure to give away the spot. 'Are you going to swim it'?. I don't like taking sleeping tablets but it got to the stage where I needed to rest for my 1500m.
The decision I've made has come from my heart. That's me, to follow my heart.
The goal was to get second in that race and think about what would happen after.
We didn't talk about the decision at all, which was great, just to get together as friends. The only thing he said to me was 'It's your decision. Just do what you have to do and I will back you 100 per cent.
I was just speechless. To go in there (Olympic Trials) thinking, just hoping, to qualify for one event at the Olympic Games then to qualify for three events. I couldn't explain it.
It was hard thinking about what had happened, as much as I tried not to. I went back to the hotel and I couldn't stop thinking about it because I was the next ranked athlete behind Grant (Hackett) and just to think 'What if I get second? What's going to happen? And that type of thing'.
I'm going to an Olympic Games, that's the bottom line!
I went away for a week. I had time to do a bit of fishing and to play some golf, trying not to think about the decision I had to make. It did get to me a bit. I lay in bed at night thinking about whether I should or shouldn't do it. I think it was just good to get away from swimming.
This would have to be the toughest moment of my life, whether to swim an event at the Olympic Games or to look after one of your best mates.
I am so immensely proud to be representing my country at the Athens Olympic Games, that's more than enough for me.
When assumptions were made that I was going to bail out there was a little part of my brain that thought 'I am going to do to prove them wrong'. In the end that wouldn't be coming from my heart and doing what was right.
No matter what policy initiatives we take on, we are going to need a permanent repository for nuclear fuel based on the law and sound science.