I could well believe that it is God's intention, since we have refused milder remedies, to compel us<br/>into unity, by persecution even and hardship. Satan is without a doubt nothing else than a hammer in the<br/>hand of a benevolent and severe God. For all, either willingly or unwillingly, do the will of God:<br/>Judas and Satan as tools or instruments, John and Peter as sons.
Do you think it all meant nothing, all the longing? The longing for home? <br/>For indeed it now feels not like going, but like going back. All my life the god<br/>of the Mountain has been wooing me. Oh, look up once at least before the end<br/>and wish me joy. I am going to my lover. Do you not see now?
I have no duty to be anyone's Friend and no man in the world has a duty to be mine. No claims, no shadow of necessity. Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art, like the universe itself (for God did not need to create). It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things which give value to survival.
To love you as I should, I must worship God as Creator. When I have learnt to love God better than my earthly dearest, I shall love my earthly dearest better than I do now. In so far as I learn to love my earthly dearest at the expense of God and instead of God, I shall be moving towards the state in which I shall not love my earthly dearest t all. When first things are put first, second things are not suppressed bu increased.