If you're going to write, don't pretend to write down. It's going to be the best you can do, and it's the fact that it's the best you can do that kills you.
And there was that poor sucker Flaubert rolling around on his floor for three days looking for the right word.
Hold your pen and spare your voice.
There's life for you. Spend the best years of your life studying penmanship and rhetoric and syntax and Beowulf and George Eliot, and then somebody steals your pencil.
I hate writing, I love having written.