I'd like to bite that lip.
It's very hard to grow up in a perfect family when you're not perfect.
It's much easier to wear your pain on the outside..
So you've just slept with him, given him your virginity, a man who doesn't love you. In fact, he has odd ideas about you, wants to make you some sort of kinky sex slave.
I've never had vanilla sex before. There's a lot to be said for it. But then, maybe it's because it's with you.