Bad people very often do one good thing.
In other words, it was a struggle with himself. And the product of that struggle: anger, bitterness, resentment, envy or transformation, aspiration, hope, decency..the product of that struggle is the quality of your life and the nature of your soul.
You could be together forever, but one of you is going to have to go first. I want it to last. I love him and I want it to stay.