You see, that's who you are, Joe. All these things. That's the person I know, and through him is the way you'll know me, because connected to all these things are, and for so many of them, I was there. And that's the thing that hurts so much.. You see, you were the only person who knew. Because were there. You were my witness. And you make sense of the fucked-up mess I become every now and then. And I could at least look at you and think, at least he knows why I am the way I am. There reasons. But I can't do that anymore and I feel so lonely.