It was like a dream you might have after death in which lost people came back to life, your friends loved you again no matter what you had done, and your failures were unaccountably forgiven.
Take a walk through the garden of forgiveness and pick a flower of forgiveness for everything you have ever done. When you get to that time that is now, make a full and total forgiveness of your entire life and smile at the bouquet in your hands because it truly is beautiful.
Forgiveness is a gift to the one who is hurting.
When you initially forgive, it is like letting go of a hot iron. There is initial pain and the scars will show, but you can start living again.