While you'll feel compelled to charge forward it's often a gentle step back that will reveal to you where you and what you truly seek.
People will ask you the question 'how is life treating you?' But my question is 'how are you treating life?' On that your happiness rests
Am I a good person? Deep down, do I even really want to be a good person, or do I only want to seem like a good person so that people (including myself) will approve of me? Is there a difference? How do I ever actually know whether I'm bullshitting myself, morally speaking?
If people try to judge you or shame you for doing safe, consensual things that make you happy, I can guarantee you they're bad people.