Hey, Rosalie? Do you know how to drown a blonde? Stick a mirror to the bottom of a pool.
In other words, it was a struggle with himself. And the product of that struggle: anger, bitterness, resentment, envy or transformation, aspiration, hope, decency. The product of that struggle is the quality of your life and the nature of your soul.
Sticks and stones will break your bones, but failure will get you killed.
Come on, don't you ever stop and smell the coffee?