You are evidence of your mother's strength, especially if you are a rebellious knucklehead and regardless she has always maintained her sanity.
No, I am never setting foot in this house again it scares me and makes me sad and I wish you could be a mom whose eyes worked but I don't think you can.
Being a mother is an attitude, not a biological relation.
Nothing is enough that doesn't come with peace of mind. Nothing is enough that doesn't come with love.
The only way to cry your eyes out and laugh your ass off at the same time is to have your mom or girlfriends present. Without them, the laughing part wouldn't be nearly as fun.
.. Moms, even good ones, sometimes lose it a little so as not to lose it all.