Luck is not as random as you think. Before that lottery ticket won the jackpot, someone had to buy it.
Besides, I can't get to where I want to go by conscious or unconscious suicide. I've got my strange little life to lead. Leading it the best I can - that's how I buy the ticket to where I want to be.
Some folks call her a runaway. A failure in the race. But she knows where her ticket takes her. She will find her place in the sun